Making memories with Julia & Billy

Yesterday we took a trip to N. Ft Myers so Seth can meet one of his big brothers Billy and his older sister Julia. We had such a wonderful time, it was so great being able to follow what you feel in your heart and just witness such happiness and love. Ever since Seth was born, I have always felt that he is our miracle baby and how we are so blessed to have him in our lives. God used Seth's BF and BM to give us this gift that we so desperately wanted and could not have on our own, however, in the beginning of this adoption (and I'm sure any adoption for that matter) there tends to be fear and anxiety, the fear of the unknown, the birth family, the health, the unsureness of things. So many things pop into your head when you are dealing with adoption, but at the same time it is one of the most beautiful and rewarding gifts that one can experience. One of the things that I always prayed about was dealing with the birth family. One of the conditions that we went forward with a domestic adoption was that we both felt that it had to be a closed adoption (again being captivated by fear). Fear of what? That someone might try and take our baby boy. The truth is that YES I have been captivated but guess what not by fear. I have been captivated by the Love of Jesus Christ and by the grace and peace that he gives me. I have been captivated by his word and by his promise. The promise that when he gives us a miracle or a gift that he never takes back what he gives us. My heart has become so broken in HIM and my eyes have become so open in HIM that I not only feel and know that we have been blessed with a miracle baby boy but we have also inherited another family. By the blood of Jesus, we are all brothers and sisters in Christ (even if your not a follower) we are still brothers and sisters in Him, our family has also inherited Seth's birth family - we are one in HIM. And that my dear friends is what moved my heart and opened up a window so that Seth can not only know about his birth family but also be a part of them. As I sat in my upper room praying, praying, praying about allowing seth to know his brothers and sisters, the Lord revealed something to me. This is baby seth's blood relatives, I the Lord have given Seth to you and your family and you have inherited a new person in your family, why not give Seth that same opportunity. I did not want to have to live knowing that Seth's birth brother and sister could have been a part of his life and I took that away from him. My heart swelled with pride yesterday when I was able to witness the love and happiness that glowed from Seth's relatives eyes. Not only from his brother and sister but also from his grandfather and grandma. Life is a circle my friends, the love that is given to us we must not keep for ourselves but pay it forward to the people that cross our paths.

Kacey - if you are watching from heaven, I promise to always love your little boy and to allow him to be a part of his siblings life. May the light of Christ always be with you and thank you for this precious gift that you gave us before you left this earth. Your purpose was complete - you joined two more families together and for that I will always be thankful.